It's settled then. Lauren and I are going to ASIA!

I am capable of hurting other people. I am capable of lying to your face. I am capable of disappointing you and neglecting you. I am capable of attacking your credibility and pushing you away because of it. I am capable of criticizing your every action. I am capable of destroying your self-esteem. I am capable of mistakes.

But I am also capable of hugging you until your face turns red. I am capable of being someone you can talk to when noone else can listen. I am capable of holding you near when you're sad. I capable of being selfless. I am capable of support. I am capable of nurture. I am capable of love. I am capable of strength and the wisdom to push forward. I am capable of friendship.

I am capable.
I am able to do so many things.

I am not able to forgive or forget this past year, nor would I ever do so.
But I am able to change my future, and if you'd like to be a part of it, I extend my hand.
Please be with me, and lend me your strength.
I will do my best if you do.

bernarda and I will silkscreen in the near future.

ps: can you tell I'm bored? a week was way more than enough time for me to get settled up here (without a car)

Why? Why did you have to involve me in this shit? While I may not be DIRECTLY involved, you INDIRECTLY made it so I had to face this shit. I'm not even a part of your life any more so why did you feel the need to butt in? I feel so completely violated. It's not like I even have anything to hide, it's just a matter of respect. It's so stupid and petty and there was nothing to even gain from this. I hope you got everything you wanted from it. I also hope you realize that YES I am talking to YOU. Yes I KNOW. I was stupid to ever trust you in the first place but I honestly believed you wouldn't stoop this low. Whatever though. Even if it happens again, I don't care. I know what kind of person you really are now, so I'm prepared for it.

wow, so I just went to CIA's site to look something up and found ( this )

also, went to D&B for half price wednesday to find ... NXA! literally the last thing I expected to find.

I'm freaking out with how much time has passed in these 5 years.
Having a blast of nostalgia and it's not okay.
I wish the old me would just go away.

I kind of hate my life right now. :\

i don't want to go to sleep. i want to just stay up all night thinking.

and i love it. life is so good.

my apartment is basically exactly the same only with a different view
(as well as larger cabinets, larger fridge, and louder microwave)

so far I've had:
-subway
-taco bell (twice in one day!)
-panera
-peanut butter and jelly
-an excess of livewire

TOO BAD green week part II is about to begin! I bet there are more green things here

( too many words out here )

ps: it's snowing :|

I sometimes forget how "love" or related feelings work.

Sometimes when you and another person cross paths, you feel you're getting hit with a complete sense of chaos. You don't know how to explain it. Somehow, that exact moment, exact place, and exact. . . I don't know, exact shit so happens to be concocted by the universe at just the right time.

Then you realize the reality of the situation and have to completely throw that out the window.

Yet, I'm, somehow, just completely fine with that.

wattle park ~6am

I suppose I'll begin with ( moving out )
then we can progress to ( sydney )
shortly followed by ( adelaide )
and concluding with ( queensland )
oh yeah and I guess ( the present moment )

I fly to cleveland tomorrow, move in on friday, there for a week or so, back to nc.
Look forward to and hoping to see some familiar faces in the next couple of weeks.

It's okay to say you've got a weak spot.
You don't always have to be on top.
Better to be hated than loved for what you're not.